I know there is a lot of talk about bullying at school and there is not enough action to stop it, or even action taken sometimes it brings no results what so ever. I was one of those many kids who got bullied since small age. Many of us got `bad attention´ in the school corridors and classrooms for the way we look, we behave, or if we are ´too smart´ apparently. Some teachers takes a notice and tries to stop it, and some totally ignore it. I remember how on 10th grade math class other students were cursing at me, calling me names, loud and clear, teacher most definitely heard it but never ever moved a finger. Never cared. Anyway her all attention was focused on students who´s parents ´were somebody´ in that little town in middle of nowhere. And I remember Russian language teacher once keeping my biggest bully after class to talk about bullying. It was good intentions, but bullying never stopped. Some students just get fixated on someone and can´t stop. It´s like heroin humiliating someone else. For me mostly it was because I didn´t dress as an average student, I was depressed and was expressing my emotions via my clothing. No one understood it back then. I was just seen as ugly, felt ugly every day and took it. Never fought back. I thought I deserved it, as mostly people who get bullied do.
There was not even one bully. Many of then actually just like starting rumors and can´t even actually tell it to your face, just pretend to be brave. When I got sick and went back home during the class, girl very loudly told during the class that I ´went to cut myself´. I heard it when I come back after sick leave. I really wanted to face her but had not enough bravery. People like that girl lurk on other weaker people to show ´how cool they are´. Popularity contest. Pff. Kiss my ass. First of all, if parents would actually do some parenting, decent parenting situation should be better. But if kids don´t get attention at home what so ever, they seek it somewhere else. Even getting followers at school to be ´cool´ or whatever term they are using now. I could tell all jokes I received about my natural blond hair, how it once was put on fire et cetera, et cetera.
But this is not what is on my mind now.
When we ´grow up´ (but do we ever really? Never mind) go to universities, colleges or work, does these behaviors really stop? Now think about it for a moment.
Yes there are no same form of bullying, words and actions usually change. They grow into ´grown up´ form. At universities I can´t tell how much bullying there is from students nowadays. As I remember much less that high school. But still it appears. And one bullying form which transforms from schools is by our dear bellowed teachers. Now there is much more restrictions how teachers can speak with their students (yay!). When I was growing up we were constantly told we are stupid, chickens, stump and so on. Excuse me dear teacher, if I don´t get it, really don´t get that thing that magically makes me stupid? Less then others that I need to hear it? And that suppose to motivate me to study more? Are you yourself that s word? I don´t know from which generation it started that motivating students can be achieved by telling them they are stupid. Person who invented it must of really be getting off by humiliating others.'
Anyway.
My last thought is about after all that when we go to work. Some of us stars working sooner, some later but we all eventually get a job. Some work places are really nice, and some... ehh... When you think that you try hard and you still get criticized in every more? Screamed on by our boss? Even if we make mistakes we should get explained what we did wrong not be screamed on. Or talked behind our backs for some reason by co-workers, someone just might not like your face. You don´t know why they have problem with you, but you constantly hear something about yourself in negative way. I am sorry but is that not bullying? It is. For what ever reason, your age, gender, race, nationality, sexuality, that happens constantly in every day life. And very often we just take it and keep our mouths shut.
One example I can tell from my life, not going in too deep and boring you to death, is that I am a foreigner in country I now live in. And I get reminded of that daily. At previous work place very often I used to get swear words screamed at me because usually old open nationalists hated that other people are working in their country, even there are thousands and thousands. We are taking your jobs! Yes! Of course. If there would be no work, enough for everyone, no one would move here. Like come on, there are a lot of work force needed and constantly open job positions, why can´t people just be happy that all other specialist and employees makes their economy better? What ever. Not so rough, but still there are ´unsatisfied´ people at my current work for foreigners working there. And it´s really pissing me off that ´customer is always right´ and we employees suppose to stay silent. Forever apparently. I am sorry where are my rights...
Even on the street if someone ask something, and I answer (of course I have accent, I am not a freakin´ native speaker for sure) sometimes I get screamed on ´fucking foreigner´ , ´fucking Russian´ (PS not Russian but what ever). I get confused, where that need of explosive anger comes from? Why do people constantly feel like criticizing, biting, humiliating, or just be bossy. Is it from our childhood then parents constantly told us we are not good enough or beat us up or what? Or people are stuck in unhappy, unhealthy relationships, households where they get criticized and feel that need to also bright the pain to someone else? I don´t many people get much worse, I would never compare myself to others who are going through hell on earth. Just my thoughts on constant humiliation many people need to get through the day and for what? Other satisfaction? When humans will finally stop getting off from suffering of others... I don´t really feel like taking it anymore, do you?
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